Friday Story,

Lately, I’ve been posting a lot of my old cop stories, maybe just trying to show both sides of the coin. There is one thing every cop must learn to handle, pain.

Lady in Waiting
The call said “possible suicide, overdose”. It was correct.
The victim was lying face down on the floor when I got there. The paramedics were right behind me. They went right to work and I started getting the story.

She was sixteen. The family was Chinese, from Hong Kong, the parents didn’t speak English but the victim and her sister were raised in Honolulu and considered themselves American.
I couldn’t see her face while the medic’s worked, but from the pictures on every wall I could see she was pretty. The pictures showed a shy looking, pretty girl just reaching the first bloom of womanhood.

Her sister was translating for the mother. Little sister was about 13 or 14 and when the mother stopped, the sister starting telling me the real background. The real story the parents would never acknowledge.
She told me her sister had finally gone on a “real” date and the boy treated her really well. He was older, he would graduate that year, but had already been accepted to the University of Hawaii. He seemed to have a good sense of where he was going.

The problem was he was Filipino. Mother and Father could not stand that. They told her she wasn’t to see him anymore. She tried to tell them how good he was and how he made her feel. They didn’t want to hear it.
She just knew it would be okay if they just would meet him and talk with him. They would see.

So she invited him over for dinner last night. She didn’t tell her family until just before he was to arrive.
Her father answered the door. He then shut it in the boy’s face, refusing to let her speak to him. He then locked her in her bedroom.

So the next day she left school early, about 9:30, and went home. She went home alone and swallowed 15-20 of her mother’s prescription sleeping pills. It was almost 5:00 before anyone came home and found her. That’s when they called.

I watched the paramedics working on her and thought what a waste. Then I realized one of the paramedic’s was looking at me from where he was air- bagging the girl. When he was sure no one else was looking, he slowly shook his head. She was already dead; they were just going through the motions for the family.
They put her on a gurney and took her to the hospital where it was made official. I made all the proper calls and notifications. Then I headed back out on patrol.

She was only 16, and had her whole life ahead of her. But because of some petty prejudices she was now and forever dead. Life wasted.

Every beat cop has some place he likes to go to write reports, maybe have a cup of coffee while he does his paperwork. I went to mine where I sat down and started to write up the report.
I couldn’t seem to get anything down on paper. I couldn’t concentrate on the report.
I couldn’t explain the tears that seemed to come on their own.
After 7 years of street patrol, it happened. I couldn’t think, I couldn’t write. I had reached a point where my soul was full.
Instead I had the first drink I ever took on duty.
The first.

Tomorrow is the Fourth of July. I will be in Hilo checking in with the wife, the dogs, and the gardenia’s. I may even do a Bulleit or 2.

Thursday One-Liner Motes

Fasten your seal-belt please: As many as a third the pilots in the Pakistan International Airlines have phony license’s. Think of that the next time you hear, “This is your Captain speaking”.

Let’s make a deal: Blackmail is such an ugly term, I prefer “extortionary bargaining”.

No, Joe Biden: H1-B visa holders did not “build this country.” Hard working, tax paying, Americans built this country. Something you know nothing about. Does anybody really think Biden will be “the” president, even if he’s elected? That would be like electing Howdy Dowdy, someone else will always be pulling the strings.

Bernie wants to spend more of your money: The pandemic spreads. “One way to help save lives and prevent illness is for Congress to pass my amendment which calls for the production and distribution of free, high-quality masks for every American household,” Sanders said. Would that include “non-American” households? Why not free masks for the world?

Two party system: Why is the Hawaii Republican party so quiet? There is 1 telephone number listed, and no names. Why? Well, the Hawaii national vote is meaningless. By the time Hawaii voting is close, the national winners are already being announced. Hawaii Electoral votes go to the Democrat candidate. As far as local votes, remember the standing nail gets hammered. Wither anyone wants to admit it or not, it’s better for a Hawaii businessman to come out as a “furry” than it is to come out as a Republican. To be a Republican Candidate, you need to be completely $$ independent, or not really a “Republican”.

Congratulations to all: After months of delayed naturalization ceremonies due to the Chinese coronavirus crisis, the United States Citizenship and Immigration Services (USCIS) agency has restarted the “swearing in” ceremonies. So far this month, at least 2,000 immigrants were naturalized. Well done all. Well done.

Masks are not about health and safety, it’s ALL about power.

Wednesday Mote With Meaning

Unasked Question: During these few weeks of “unrest”, statues toppled, monuments defaced, and churches burned, supposedly much of this is the work of “white supremacist”, because the BLM/Antifa folks are all non-violent so it had to be disgruntled whites. Someone has to ask how many mosques have been defaced, burned, or destroyed? I can’t find a report of a single incident. I can find lots of Christian Churches damaged, a few synagogues, but not 1 single mosque. I thought it was about white hatred.

Just asking: How come, with all the recorded video, nobody from CHAZ or Chomp, are being Arrested and charged with, anything? Move in, drive the legal owner out, destroy the property, and then just walk away.

We’re different: Once again Hawaii politicians show they will only enforce those things they agree with. The Honolulu police chief does not agree with all of the proposed changes expected to pass in upcoming state Legislature police reform bills. Chief Susan Ballard said she does not believe all the measures required to comply with a presidential executive order are necessary. So, since we do not agree, we won’t enforce the President’s executive order.

Not a two-way thing: All these white actors are falling all over themselves because they appeared, or acted, in “blackface”. What about black actors that have appeared in “white face”? How come none of them are gnashing and wailing? Because it’s not a 2 way street.

Funny, yeah: I’ve been reading the “profiles” on all the candidates here in Hawaii. I never knew there were so many “nonpartisan” politicians here. It’s like nobody was to be associated with a specific party, even when they’re known lifelong party members. And again, the usual “ghost” campaigns are in full swing. I call the “ghost” because nobody says what they stand for, what they’re going to do, or what makes them different from the other candidates.



Trying Tuesday Motes

Really: Racial and ethnic terrorism, particularly white supremacist threats, are “on the rise and spreading geographically” according to a State Department report released Wednesday. “The threat posed by racially or ethnically motivated terrorism (REMT), particularly white supremacist terrorism, remained a serious challenge for the global community,” the report reads. Now that makes sense, after all, most of the people you see pulling down statues and taunting cops, are young whites. Otherwise, this just sounds stupid.

Silly me: The NBA and the National Basketball Players Association said Wednesday that dealing with racial matters will be a shared goal during the resumed season. The league and union announced they will “take collective action to combat systemic racism and promote social justice” when the season restarts. Silly me, I thought they played basketball for the entertainment of the fans.

I could join these guys: From; ‘Cut Red Tape Coalition’ Piling Up Deregulation Wins While Flying Under Washington’s Political Radar. Reminds me of the Hank Williams Jr. song, “The Coalition To Ban Collations’.” Another good idea.

A pretty good watch: Watched the Netflix, “The Stand At Paxton County”, claimed to be based “on actual events”. Normally such movies have barely any resemblance the actual events, this one is not so. These events actually took place on a Gladstone, N.D., ranch owned by Gary Dassinger. Gary, along with his daughter, Missy, faced the unthinkable when a hired man staged photos of neglect and abuse and made a report to authorities. With leads, Jacqueline Toboni, Christopher McDonald, and Michael O’Neill it is a tight well told story and movie. Especially to someone who, like myself, decry the lengths some organizations will go to, to destroy those over whom they claim moral superiority. A thoroughly engrossing 1 hour 44 minutes I recommend it be watched.

I’m surprised the police department hasn’t called me to return, just so they could fire me. Again.
Can I watch?? 🙂



Monday, Motes to Make You Go OUCH!

I gotta put this in my stand-up act: In England a sicko perv sent unsolicited picture of his genitals to a young woman, Faye Kiney. Now there’s no information why the perv chose this woman but he was surprised when “she” sent a return picture of her package, which apparently is “much larger”. Ms. Kiney refers to herself as “that girl with the big dixx”. You can’t make this up.

Aesop was right: With all the “America was built on slavery, theft, and mistreatment” comments and the demands some people make amends to some other people, I am reminded of the Aesop fable; The Wolf and The Lamb; A Wolf seeing a Lamb drinking at a brook, took it into his head that he would find some plausible excuse for eating him. So he drew near, and, standing higher up the stream, began to accuse him of disturbing the water and preventing him from drinking. The Lamb replied that he was only touching the water with the tips of his lips; and that, besides, seeing that he was standing downstream, he could not possibly be disturbing the water higher up. So the Wolf, having done no good by that accusation, said: “Well, but last year you insulted my Father.” The Lamb replying that at that time he was not born, the Wolf wound up by saying: “However ready you may be with your answers, I shall none the less make a meal of you. Moral: The tyrant can always find an excuse for his tyranny. It’s too bad we don’t teach these anymore.

Where’s the outrage: On June 13, Hannah Fizer was stopped by a Pettis Count MO sheriff deputy. Six minutes later she was dead after being shot multiple times by the deputy, that was not wearing a body camera. There was no weapon recovered from Fizer’s body or from within the vehicle. Where are the riots? The outrage? Oh, Hannah was white. Never mind.

I work for you, you do what I say; Employees at tech giant Google are reportedly demanding that the company stop selling software to law enforcement agencies. Employees believe the company should be ” joining the millions who want to defang and defund these institutions.” It is reported that more than 1,600 Google employees have signed an internal petition calling for the firm to stop selling its software to police. If an employee doesn’t like the way a company does business, or who they sell their product to,the employee has the right to leave. They do not have the right to demand the company change it’s business model. The inmates are running the asylum.

Sunday “Guest” Rant

I don’t know the originator of this piece. But it is powerful.

If I say ‘all lives matter,’ I’m a racist. If I stand for my flag, I have to apologize for it. I’m not allowed to go to church, but I can burn churches to the ground. I’m not allowed to open my own business, but I can go loot and destroy other people’s businesses.”
“If I wear a badge, dressed in blue, I’m a racist pig. But if I walk around destroying my city with bricks and masks, I’m considered a peaceful protester.”
“If I wear a blue Aloha short, I’m a white racist, if I wear a black hood and mask I’m a freedom fighter.”
“I’m not allowed to peacefully protest the lockdown at my capitol, but I can go destroy and graffiti my capitol.”
“I’m not allowed to go to the park to play T-ball with my family, but I can destroy the park.”
“I’m not allowed to protect our historical monuments and history, but I can go tear them down and have them land on top of people.”
“I’m not allowed to have an opinion on racial matters because I’m white, but if I don’t have an opinion on it, I’m the reason why people are oppressed.”
“I can go riot in the streets with the BLM but if I go to a Trump rally COVID-19 magically appears.”
“Does anyone else not see the hypocrisy in all of this?”
“I am done with your bullsh*t!”


Saturday Story


His name was Kenneth Tolsma, we all called him “Doc”. He had gone to medical school at Northwestern University. He was the officially one of the last Baron’s of Friesland; he was the last male in his line which made him the Baron.
Like the legendary Doc Holiday, he was a highly educated, extremely well read, and physically frail man who knew his life would be short. He was fearless, socially challenged and as loyal as a friend and brother as any man could ever hope to have in his life.
He was the dying Doc Holiday to my disgraced but determined to do right Wyatt Earp. I loved him like he was my own blood.
Being classically educated, Doc spoke more languages than most people have heard. With an IQ that was almost off the charts. Doc started medical school when he was just 18. Yes I said medical school.
A classical education meant he spoke English. He spoke English with a Dutch accent, so for many months I assumed he was South African, especially since he also spoke Afrikaans.
As a physician he had no bedside manner. He was gruff and really didn’t like sick people. He became a doctor because it was “expected” of him by his parents, whom he didn’t like either. So his specialty was neurology, and since he was color-blind it was better that he diagnosed rather than treated so the medical interaction between he and patients was as little as possible.
At various times, he was the Honolulu City and County physician, attending physician at the Hyperbaric Treatment Center, an insurance medical evaluation doctor, and he really wanted to be a chef. He could cook, just no desserts.
That’s not right, he’d make incredible desserts, but as a diabetic he couldn’t eat what he cooked.
Like Earp’s Holiday, my Doc was cursed with a lingering death sentence, he was insulin dependent diabetic. He was convinced he would not grow old. He’d live his life on his terms.
Doc stopped playing competitive chess and took up backgammon because chess took too long to win any money. And with backgammon, it was quicker, and he did win money.
At the time, backgammon was enjoying popularity and lots of people thought they could play. Most of them did not understand it was a mathematical problem solving exercise, it was never a game. Especially when there was money involved. Doc understood and usually won.
He did enjoy chess, but the local players mostly bored him, so he played opponents over the internet when not attending chamber patients.
One night we walked into the bar and walked pass a woman playing a small electric chess game. We both stopped and looked on several minutes. I simply looked at Doc and stated, “Black mate in seven”, and walked away. I sat at our usual table and ordered a beer.
Doc stood there staring at the chess board for several minutes, when he finally walked to the table the look on his face can only be described as perplexed “James” he started out. “I just don’t see the black mate in seven. What do you see that I don’t?”
This was perfect. I took a long slow pull of my beer, smiled and told him; “Hell Doc I’m just messing with you. I couldn’t see check mate if there were only 2 pieces on the board. But she’ll spend the rest of the night looking for it.”
Doc got mad at me a couple of times, mostly when I’d get in a fight and he wasn’t around. He’d still stitch me up in the back parking lot of wherever and bitch the whole time.
As the years went by he got frailer and didn’t monitor his insulin as close as he should have. We’d usually have trouble when we were in Vegas for the club’s New Year’s party. It got to the point we’d get him a room at the hotel/casino of the party and then I’d nag him all night.
Doc had studied fencing, judo, wrestling, and liked shooting. Kinda violent activities for a doctor, but he was that sort of a doctor. He once broke another interns arm. It was in an ER and Doc was working on an injured gang member when the intern grabbed his arm from behind. Not a good thing to do when the grabee is on edge anyway.
I’ve said what a friend Doc was. He was my brother in all but blood. I use this story to illustrate what a brother will do.

I had just received a troubling phone call regarding “someone” looking for me at my favorite bar. There was no name but there was a hint that it was a member of another 1% club and it was about a dealer I knew and they were looking for.
I called Doc with the intention of soliciting some advice. I always valued Doc’s advice, even if I didn’t follow it.
Doc was home, and unusually he was almost sober. Almost.
I explained the situation and the people involved. I covered my possible actions and the possible responses to each.
Finally doc asked, “James, how bad can this get?” I hemmed and hawed for a moment then replied, “Well, could get heep bad juju.”
I turned to my wife and said “the son-of-a-bitch just hung up on me.”
We both laughed and I waited for the call back figuring he had hit the wrong button on his cell phone, again.
Twenty or so minutes later there was a knock at the door. There stood Doc, overnight bag with 3 days of clothes, thermos kit with his insulin and diabetic supplies, and a .357 magnum hanging under his arm.
His only question, “Where do I sleep?”
It took me a while to explain to him this wouldn’t splash onto my family. Once I explained the facts I didn’t want to say on the phone, he understood, recalled the cab he had taken up to our house and went home.
The point, he showed up ready for whatever happened without my asking him. That’s a man ready to put his life on the line for his “Brother”.

We lost Doc a few years ago. But he will always be in my heart and memory. Seldom does a day go by that I don’t think of him.
I’ll continue to tell this story to anyone who needs an explanation of the words Heart, Friend, and Brother.

Friday Motes Just In Case

Just a note: I live on the 11th floor. If your car radio is audible and rattles my dishes, YOUR RADIO IS TOO DAMN LOUD.

About average: It has come out that the BLM is incredibly well funded and only spends about 6% of its income on its stated purpose. The rest goes for “expenses” and “salaries”. Research shows that most “charities” spend less than 15% of their income on the actual “charity”. Remember that the next time you get another “donate now” letter.

Quote Curly Bill : Mississippi State running back Kylin Hill claims that he will not play football at the school unless the State of Mississippi removes the Confederate battle flag from its state banner. If this young person, he certainly is not a man to me, thinks he is more important that a 126-year-old state flag is ludicrous. To him I quote Curly Bill Brocious, “Well, Bye.”

The irony is deep: Long time porn “star” Ron Jeremy has been brought up on several rape and assault charges. Considering his only claim to fame, the irony is just too deep.

I literally never exaggerate: Rob Reiner is back to his old tricks, this time telling his one million Twitter followers on Tuesday that a vote for President Donald Trump “is a vote for Death.” Reiner then predicted that Trump will lose in a landslide “because Americans will literally be voting for their lives.” Come on Rob, don’t hold back, tell us how you really feel.

Even Hollywierder: The View co-host Joy Behar admitted coronavirus restrictions are making (?) her crazy. “All I do is I get in my car maybe with Steve and I go, we go around town looking for people who are not wearing masks. Jealous of my life? That’s it. That’s what I do.” There’s no telling what Behar does once she finds someone not wearing a mask, but judging by her comment she’s going crazy, it’s probably not a very sane reaction. But defund the police and hire a liberal.

Thursday Motes For All

Don’t need no stinkin’ facts: Co-founder of Pink Floyd and anti-Israel activist Roger Waters claims Israel’s military “invented” the chokehold used by a Minneapolis police officer that killed George Floyd. Israeli Defense Forces taught Americans the technique that cuts off “blood supply of the carotid artery to the brain.” “That is an Israeli technique, taught to the militarized police forces of the United States of America by Israeli experts, who the Americans have been flying over to the United States, to teach them how to murder the Blacks because they’ve seen how efficient the Israelis have been at murdering Palestinians in the occupied territories using those techniques,” Waters said. ” Roger, ol’ buddy, I hate to tell you, but that hold is from Jujitsu, was developed by the Japanese, and was used 3-4 hundred years before there was an Israel. But don’t let the truth get in your way.

Just trying to stay relevant: King of the “B” movies, Eric Roberts unleashed his fury by tweeting ”Ther weren’t enough empty-headed people 2 fill th empty seats.Some of those seats would hav been filled with people who died because believing u led them to disbelieve the devastation of this virus, about which you joke, mocking efforts to save lives”(sic) The Suits actor also lambasted the president for holding the rally in the first place. Roberts also ripped into Trump’s proposal to criminalize the burning of the American flag, hinting that those who mock people wearing masks as protection against the virus should be prosecuted instead. No word yet on how Eric feels about rioting, burning, looting or giant unmasked “protests.”

Just thinking: Does anybody realize the next 5 months spell JASON ? 2020 is not shaping up very well.

Alternate future: Many years ago I read R.A.H.’s “Farnham’s Freehold”. Anybody else? I don’t seem to remember any uproar over it, it predicts a “black” controlled world. Just waiting for them to demand R.A.H. be banned as a racist, or something.

The visual is the important thing: The headline says, “Florida woman claimed she was mistreated by Tampa police after an officer drew his weapon and had it trained on her for over four minutes before she was handcuffed — and eventually released without charges.” Okay, the vehicle she and a passenger were in had been reported stolen, the officer was in a solo patrol vehicle, he did not approach nor threaten. The officer made a “felony” stop, controlled the action until additional officers arrived, and she was released pending further investigation of the stolen vehicle. But what did you visualize reading the headline?